Mai thoughts on life

Today is just one of those days when I wake up with a thought of you. And I know right then that it’s going to be a bad day. I know I won’t be able to get you out of my head no matter what I do to distract myself.

The more I try not to think about you, the more the memory of you keeps popping up in my mind. Your smile that used to brighten my day. Your voice that used to melt my heart. And your eyes that used to pierce my soul every time you looked at me.

I still remember the time when you bought me flowers from the street vendor just because I said I liked how colorful they looked. Or the time we spent the night walking around town because I couldn’t sleep. The time you took me to dinner and I ate all of your food because I didn’t like the taste of what I ordered.

Remember the time when you waited for hours at the airport because my flight was late? Or the time you bought the whole box of sweets even though I said I wanted just one? What about that time we picked matching key chains, but I ended up taking both and you were left with none?

Do you still remember how tight you held me that last day we spent together? Did you know it’s our last day? If you knew, why didn’t you tell me? I would have stayed a little longer and hugged you a little tighter. If you told me, I would have kissed you a little harder and hold your hand for a little while longer.

When I wake up with a thought of you I know it’s going to be a bad day. I know I will spend the whole day thinking about you and hoping you are doing the same. But do you? Do you ever wake up with a thought of me? Do you ever just have one of those days you know are going to be bad?